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Summary: When it all began, you simply took a blind dive into the unknown. But would have you offered your love to the one you worship, had you known the price he would have to pay for loving you back? Would you trust yourself to know between right and wrong? If you could see the hopeless end of your journey, would you still take the road? And when all was over, would you be blind to see a new road lying at your feet? Would you dare follow it? Would you, Faramir?
Rated: NC-17
Categories: Book Verse Slash, Lord of the Rings Slash Characters: Aragorn, Arwen, Beregond, Boromir, Denethor, Elboron, Eldarion, Elladan, Elrohir, Eomer, Eowyn, Faramir, Gandalf / Olorin, Glorfindel, Imrahil, Legolas, Lothiriel, Orophin, Théoden, Théodred
Genres: Angst, Drama, Erotica, Romance
Warnings: Character Death, Graphic Sex, Incest, Kink, Rape, Slash (same sex pairing), Violence
Challenges: None
Series: None
Chapters: 8 Completed: No
Word count: 48319 Read: 16998
Published: Jun 29 2010 Updated: Jan 07 2012

1. Chapter 1. A Little Less Conversation by December [Reviews - 11] (4997 words)
“Falling Into You”by Celine Dion would be the song to listen to before reading this first chapter.

2. Chapter 2. On the Contradictory Nature of Love by December [Reviews - 0] (4938 words)


To balrog and Alcardilmë for beta on this chapter.

To iris for her patient help with this story and general artistic encouragement.

To my dear Anastasiya for never forgetting to prod me on with ‘well, and where is the next chapter?’

To everyone who is making comments and otherwise supporting me in writing this tale. My inspiration nourishes on every kind word from you.


For those of the readers who like listening to music while or before reading, the following would make a nice soundtrack: “Don’t Forget” by Era.

Previously in ‘After a Lifetime’

Faramir turns to his brother for practical advice on girls, but things get out of hand. Bewildered by the suddenly kindled passion, Boromir flees their chamber. He then visits his mistress and tries to work it off on her, but his body refuses to cooperate. The following day, when guilt-ridden Faramir seeks him out for an explanation, Boromir pushes him away on account of being in a hurry preparing for an errand the Steward had sent him on. However, later that day Faramir learns from his father that Boromir had in fact begged to be allowed to leave the City – which Faramir takes as proof that his older brother despises him. Faramir is hurt and outraged, and – when Denethor starts praising Boromir for his self-effacing desire to protect Gondor – asks for a similar task. Pleasantly surprised, the Steward assigns him to join a group of Rangers to patrol the eastern borders.

3. Chapter 3. Lavender by December [Reviews - 0] (6070 words)

Thanks to Alcardilmë and balrog for the beta.

Previously in After a Lifetime

Faramir is assigned to a group of Rangers in Ithilien. After a couple of months passing in the usual warrior routine, he is wounded in an Orc attack and taken to the City for healing. Several days later, Boromir, having learnt of his brother’s trouble, hurriedly returns from his own mission. He finds Faramir in the hospital ward and tries to act as though nothing is wrong between them – but Faramir, remembering Boromir’s earlier conduct, is cold and sarcastic with him, deeming Boromir’s present concern and affection hypocritical and short-lived. Boromir is so staggered by Faramir’s rejection and overwhelmed by his own long-nursed guilt, that he cannot withhold himself. He poignantly confesses that the only reason he had been unkind to Faramir and effectively ran away from him is that he was afraid that otherwise he would have succumbed to the wicked passion that had then taken him, and would have done something horrible to his brother (it is, however, not clear from his words whether he is still suffering from said desire). At this, Faramir not only immediately forgives him, but actually feels at fault himself, for having misjudged and offended Boromir. Thus they make peace – but do not dare raise the subject throughout the following days, while Faramir stays in the Houses of Healing. Boromir acts as before and is impossible to read, so Faramir grows to wonder if his brother had chased away or outgrown his yearning.

4. Chapter 4. Of Sea Pearls and Almond Blossoms by December [Reviews - 0] (7449 words)

Thanks to Alcardilmë and balrog for the beta.

Previously in After a Lifetime

Following their unspoken agreement to act as though nothing had happened, the brothers come to their old bedchamber for the night. In his usual manner, Boromir starts picking on Faramir, this time for smelling like a girl, since Faramir had applied lavender oil to his skin while washing. But Boromir’s mirth dies when Faramir undresses for bed – still behaving as if nothing is off. Annoyed by Boromir’s jests, and generally strangely unsettled, Faramir comes over to do some teasing of his own, namely to give Boromir a lesson in hygiene. But Boromir, overcome with desire, cannot control himself, and pulls Faramir to him. They stand thus, overwhelmed by emotion and not daring to move.

5. Chapter 5. Fatality by December [Reviews - 1] (6504 words)

Previously in After a Lifetime

Need and desire overrule Boromir, and without any more moral struggle he carries the all-too-eager young Faramir to bed, where the boy swiftly finds completion courtesy of his brother’s practiced hand. Unsatisfied himself, Boromir nevertheless waits for Faramir to regain his senses before climbing atop the boy to resume their lovemaking. Faramir is fully willing, but when the older brother says he wants more, Faramir does not quite understand. Yet he gives his consent without hesitation, it not occurring to him Boromir himself might not know how to go about it.

6. Chapter 6. Wise Wives by December [Reviews - 0] (6868 words)
Note: Many thanks to Alcardilme for the beta.

7. Chapter 7. Boys by December [Reviews - 1] (5620 words)
Note: Flowers to Alcardilmn5; for beta on this chapter.
Previously in ‘After a Lifetime’
Faramir spends his morning in quiet reflexion, observation and discovery – but the beginning of Boromir’s day is far less enjoyable in nature.

8. Chapter 8. Leprosy by December [Reviews - 1] (5873 words)

Many thanks to dear Alcardilmë for help with this chapter.

Previously in ‘After a Lifetime’

While young Faramir spends the better part of his day studying enlightening materials in the reading rooms, on the morning following their unplanned night of love it falls to Boromir to publicly allocate penalty to two young cadets caught engaging in disgraceful practices in the stables.