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Title: You Were the One 1/2
Author: Sivan Shemesh sivan325@walla.com
Beta: Piper
Rating: R
Pairing: Aragorn/Legolas, Aragorn/Arwen (implied).
Warning: Character death, pwp, emotional stuff, tissues are probably needed…
Disclaimer: The usual cast, they did not belong to me. Even the song is not mine.
Timeline: A day after the war is over… ROTK…
Summary: As the song goes; Legolas is hurt as he saw his lover married, not to him.

Song: “Behind these hazel eyes” - Kelly Clarkson




Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me

I hope you remembered how I took you in my arms, my hands moving on your hairy skin.

I loved to touch you, I could see the smile on your face as I touched every inch of your skin, tried to touch and to feel all of you.

Your hairy chest, tickled me time after time, and you thought I giggled… Valar may helped me, because I love you so much, that I kept telling myself that you are my one, and the only one that kept me alive during the war.

I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight

Though I must confess that I felt like I was going to fall, time after time as I saw how the evil wanted to see you die, how the troll almost killed you.

I thought that you loved me, really loved me, but it seemed that I was fooled by love, and especially by you.

Everything, it felt so right

How could you do this to me? I loved every inch of you, I loved the sweetness of your body, I loved everything about you, including the smile, I loved that smile.

Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong

But this is over… you are not mine anymore, as you chose another, not me, my all heart and soul were yours, I gave in, and gave you all.

Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

I stared at you and your queen from the gates, I watched you outside the palace, but I could not get my heart to forgive you at that moment, as you broke mine the same way.

You have could told, instead you put the crack in my heart without any warning, you could have told me first, but you did not even think of me, I was last on your list.

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside

I kept watching you two, and noticed how happy you were as you looked at her, and I remembered us, as we spend every night, as I tried to remember if you really smiled at me, and didn’t pretend. I wished that you did not pretend, but it seemed I was wrong.

If you could only see me inside, see into my eyes, see my feelings for you, but you cannot.

But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

My father was right about love between elves and humans, though he was also wrong, as he said to me that my heart would broken if you die, but my heart is broken before you died.

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright

I told you of my life, all of my secrets that I buried inside, my father did not know of them. And I let you in, inside my heart that I kept safe locked with chains, I gave you the key. The key to my heart.

For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
Sewn together, but so broken up inside

“Legolas?” I heard behind me.

I turned around only to find Gimli, staring at me, I asked, “Gimli? What are you doing with my horse?” It seemed that I forgot his presence, as you were all I can think about.

I only wished that you knew it.

“What?” Gimli seemed confused, and asked me, “Do you not remember our agreement of riding to Gondor? To see our friend and the queen?”

'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

I shook my head as no, because I did not remember, I have been thinking of my lover, now my ex-lover.

Gimli looked at me, “Are going to meet him or sit on your horse all day?” he asked me.

I dismounted from Arod, and then helped Gimli to dismount, and he started to walk over to the palace, but I could not get my legs to walk, as I could not face you, as you hurt me deep inside, if you could only feel what I feel, that could be much easier for me.

I mounted again on my horse, and Gimli turned around, looked at me, seemed worried, but I said not a word, I just wanted to get away, as I could not stand it anymore, all the pain, the hurt, and my broken heart.

“Are you leaving for Valar?” Gimli asked me, I nodded, and lowered my head, hiding the fallen tears, and I could feel his eyes staring at me, as he asked, “Already?”

I shook my head no again, and answered motionless, “No, my friend, I am leaving for the sea, but I will not take the gray ships. I will walk into the sea, because there is nothing left to make me stay.” I said and rode from Gondor. The new tears fell down as I raced away.

You freed me from your heart, so now I am free.

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I rode faster and faster to the sea. I stopped my loyal horse and stood stroking him as a farewell, then I watched as the waves hit the sand time after time.

As I walked into the sea I noticed the cold waves upon my legs, but it did not stop me from walking in more and more.

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself

I could feel myself drowning, as I let go, giving in, as nothing seemed to matter, as you left me, and broke me inside.

Darkness pulled me in, and the next thing that I saw was the shine, and faces smiling at me, and then I knew that the Valar welcomed me.

Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside

End of Chapter 1.
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