Such turmoil she is in. I guess I never realized how much suspicion and animosity there was from the Lorien elves, even from Mirkwood. Yet she is the one who has to make things right. Her anger is apparent. She is the one who can save them all yet they distrust her. Most would say 'fine then, do it yourself and see how far that gets you.' I really feel for her. None of this is going to be easy. But I am so glad Innas is with her now. I really like his character. He stays true to his heart. Celemire is very fortunate, even if they are seperated at the moment.
Author's Response: Yes, Amorith's turmoil is definitely growing now that she has gone into Mirkwood. The Lórien Silvans were known to be fierce defenders of their land according to Tolkien, and even though the Lady Galadriel is Noldo, it does not mean they welcomed Amorith. Amorith, as direct descendant of Fėanor, will always be under suspicion and prejudice--the immortal Elves never forget. As for their Mirkwood counterparts, they are even more withdrawn from the world, led by a formidable King who mistrusts his southern neighbors. Already Amorith doubts her decision, but now that she has gone this far there is no going back. If Innas was not present I do not think she would have lasted long. I am glad you are enjoying him, he is a personal favorite of mine as well. He is exactly as you described him. In a way I am slightly jealous of Celemirė for lucking out with him ;)
Some great tense moments here. It really is a shame to see Mirkwood divided like this, especially with evil so close. I love how you are portraying everyone as defecting from Mirkwood, unable to support Thranduil's decisions or lack of. And who is left, the last one to stand with her king? Celemire. She has really developed in her character from her original self. It is wonderful to see this growth in her. You are also doing an excellent job setting things up for Amorith's return. Great work as always.
Author's Response: Thanks, Moe. Things are definitely escalating for everyone, and now that Thranduil has decided to take charge there are tough times ahead for all. However, not everything is as it seems. When Amorith comes the situation will be even more muddled. Celemirė is also changing because there is no other option for her. I don't envy Amorith's return at all.
I have always wanted to know what it was like when Thranduil and Amorith met. This is just a speck of a glance. I don't normally make requests because I know how busy most people are, but if I may... I would love to see a side piece with these two, how they met, what events might have been taking place at the time, how they fell in love. Yes or no it's fine with me. That being said, the part that moved me the most was this last section with Amorith's thoughts. The paragraph that starts with 'Love, the bane of every Elf and Man.', truly touched me. Your words are so passionate. This is what makes you such a wonderful writer. The last sentence however leaves me wondering what is about to happen.
Author's Response: Thanks Moe. I am planning on writing a piece about how Vanimė and Thranduil met, whether as the fourth part of the series or a seperate piece as you indicated. A kind of prelude to all this perhaps. And now that I have your support I may very well do it! I am glad you liked Vanimė's perspective. It was meant for you to be left with a wondering sense. I feel that love is a huge factor that really makes people's minds spin, and makes you do crazy things you might otherwise not have even dreamed of thinking about even. I appreciate your kind words. :)
You have me so revved up for this return to Mirkwood, I can't stand it. Between Vanime and Amorith, something's going down. I don't think it's gonna be pretty. And now Celemire is thrown into the mix. And Innas and... I'm so excited. It's a good thing I already keep my nails cut short or I would have chewed them off by now. Poisoned or not, sparks are gonna fly that's for sure.
Author's Response: I hope I don't disappoint you! There are definitely going to be many turns and twists in the upcoming chapters before the truth is revealed. I suggest you keep those nails short then ;)
Wow! I could almost cry. Such tragedy. Poor Celemire. Isn't it true to life that the most innocent are hurt or taken before steps are made to prevent such tragedy. Thranduil will suffer deeply for this. His pride was his downfall. It always was and he took his people along with him. Now he's responsible for so much sadness. It was inevitable and anyone on the outside looking in could see it coming, but could do nothing about it. I'm angry with Thranduil but at the same time I want to cry for him. Mostly for Celemire though since she is really the most hurt from all of this. Wonderful, excellent, heart-stopping chapter.
Author's Response: Yes, sad times indeed for Mirkwood and her King. As I was reviewing this chapter, the exact statement that you wrote in your fourth sentence passed through my mind. Thranduil is already starting to suffer; there's nothing worse than being the cause of your own defeat. And my own heart goes to Celemirė as well. I am glad once more that you enjoyed this chapter, even though it was quite tragic. I beg you to hold on, for there are more twists coming soon. Not everything is as it seems.
This was just heartwrenching. Everything seems to have fallen apart. I can feel that Amorith is torn between despair for Celemire, hate for Thranduil and her hate and guilt for herself. Emotions were running high in this chapter. I am so fearful for Celemire. If an elf can fade over the loss of a love, I can't even begin to imagine what will happen over the loss of a child, especially in the manner it was done. I just want to cry for her. I am literally on the edge of my seat. As tragic and desolate as this chapter is, it is wonderfully done. You have not sugarcoated anything and that makes this very realistic. I've stopped guessing which direction you will take us next. You just keep doing what you're doing 'cause I'll follow you anywhere at this point.
Author's Response: Thanks, I am truly humbled by your review! It is so hard to portray emotions in words, especially the depth I am aiming for in this story. You definitely hit upon the self-hate Amorith has for herself, as well as towards Thranduil. Her despair over the plight of Celemirė is another blow. I am still unsure as to which direction myself I want for Celemirė's future. I do not want to sugarcoat, as you said, but rather to remain realisitic as best to my abilities. I want to let you know that the next chapter will be a bit delayed as tomorrow I am heading back home and may be jet-lagged for a few days. Since I have your faith, I will keep leading you onwards. Enjoy.
You know, when you said you were flying back I wondered if you would be affected. Of course, I don't know where you're flying to but with such a big portion of the US getting hit by this storm I thought you might be delayed. Well now, you have completely left my head spinning with this one. Everything I assumed has just been tossed out the window. I gotta tell you, I love Galadriel here. It's very true to her personality. Loved how you had her seem cold and threatening as she spoke of the rings and then returned to that motherly figure once more. Just the picture you painted of the three women-elves speaking together was very inspiring. Another great chapter. I hope you are not delayed too long and that you have a safe trip home.
Author's Response: Yup, out of sheer foolishness made it to the airport and found out our flight was cancelled. We're hoping to leave tomorrow but who knows with the weather. And flying into JFK during horrid weather isn't fun. Just keep praying for good weather and a safe arrival home, please. As for this chapter, I'm glad it spun you around. That was my intent. Playing Galadriel is hard; she is such a fierce character. Glad you loved how I portrayed her. She is a strong lady, and even Tolkien wrote that she strove against Sauron in thought and knew much of what he was planning. Plus being Noldo adds to one's machness ;) I wanted Forfirith to have some part in the story as well. If you think this is all the twists and turns you can handle, get ready for more.
I love the touch with the note. It is just what Amorith needs right now. And I have to say, the part where she is reminiscing about young Legolas touched my heart. My daughter used to play with my hair all the time when she was little. I can just see Amorit holding little Leggi, his arm snaked up around her neck and twirling her hair. It's nice to get a glimpse into her past with the royal family. What a beautiful family they made. I fear for what is to come but I'm anxious to find out also.
Author's Response: Thanks. She needed the extra push forward. All these little touching stories about baby Legolas I stole from my little cousin's mannerisms. He spent a few days with me. As you said, a little glimpse into their life, as you requested as well. Hold on to your seat. We're almost there.
You've got me spinning once again. I don't think I saw any of this coming. Well, I knew it was not textbook stuff. I am so reminded of Galadriel when Frodo offers her the ring. This is her test. Will she try to take over Mirkwood or resist and become a balanced version of both Amorith and Vanime. I know Thranduil fits in here somehow but I can't even begin to guess how. How do you do it? This story is one of the most mature and intriguing one's I have read. In your bio you say you're a nurse by trade. My best friend is a nurse too and she comes up with some of the most imaginative ideas. It must be a nurse thing, LOL.
Author's Response: Here's a secret: I never saw this coming either! I sat down to type, with a vague idea of what I wanted, and this happened. I like when my imagination takes over and not the limited set ideas of my mind. Very encouraging that it worked out and you liked it :) Yes, I wanted to show just how deeply the schism is within her own self. She is at conflict now with everything around her, and in her. And tough choices lie ahead. Thranduil will come along shortly. As for how I do this...well sometimes I get stuck on a chapter for a long time. Case in point, 6 chapters ahead, I've been working on it for about 3 wks and still not done. Sometimes it comes easily and other times not. No idea if it's a nurse thing, but very well could be. We do have to be imaginitive at our jobs ;)
Again, I didn't see that coming. Thranduil was there the whole time. I wondered where he was. This also shows how disconnected they are, to a degree; if it's true that when elves love each other they can sense each other. Here he was literally beneath her nose, yet they were still very distant. Thranduil is still very untrusting of her, but I think I see it from his point of view now. There was a time when I just thought he was being stubborn, but now I see him as being a great King. He is worried more for his people. Oh, and the poem really sums it all up for Amorith/Vanime. Very well done. I can hardly wait for more. I'm anxious for those first words spoken between Sindar and Noldo and hope they can once again see each other as Thranduil and Amorith.
Author's Response: Glad I am keeping you on your toes. I didn't see that coming either ;) Yes, you picked up on the degree of disconnection between them. They shared the exact same waking dream-memory and didn't even realize it. Also, am happy you picked up on Thranduil's point of view. The story starts out depicting him as blind because of his prejudices, but The Resolution shows that there was more to him, as well as his history in Doriath. Of course, he still is stubborn and proud, but those aren't the only factors. Yes, that song is so touching; it loses it's meaning when translated, and I did my best. Hold onto your seat, we're almost there :)
Beautifully written chapter. Some tense moments, saddness, longing. My favorite part was the end when Thranduil lays his head on her stomach and embraces her. It was just such a wonderful and sad moment. He still loves her but it can not be. He must be king. He is Thranduil. I am happy but heartbroken at the same time. Simply wonderful writing!
Author's Response: This chapter was a challenge to write. So many emotions running high; I had a soundtrack playing in the background for inspiration. I do believe at the very end I even shed a few tears. Thranduil is so overjoyed to see her, and he is thankful for her choice. They are both starting to acknowledge their mistakes. But with the impending doom upon them only the most serious matters must be dealt with. So many dynamics at stake here, Vanimė is trying to take the higher, harder road. Thanks again for your review and continued support :)
This is so heartbreaking, but Vanime is so strong. She does not want Thranduil to suffer as she has, divided. I love Innas' reaction. He wanted to see them together once again and I feel for him. As I read this I was feeling their rekindling and then despair. It's just so sad that they cannot be together now. And then Thranduil's doubt returns in the very end. Oh, and the hawk and dove part is a very nice touch. I am so glad that you will be writing more. I really enjoyed this story and can't wait for more.
Author's Response: Vanimė is the one who has to sacrifice more because Thranduil must remain King; his sacrifice is to sunder himself from her, this time officially. Poor Innas is devestated. He loves the Noldo as much as he loves his King. Life isn't always about what you get; at times you reap what you sowed. And Vanimė realizes this and is accepting her fate slowly. As for Thranduil, his desire to redeem himself before his people and to himself as well is making him think everything through from all possible angles. Mirkwood is now at war. I am glad you liked the part about Maeglin (the hawk) and the dove.
Great self-doubt and conflict in this chapter. And I love how you brought back Haldir's words. I remember reading that earlier. I didn't know then what a significant part it played later on. With all the wonderful characters in this story, I never pictured it being Haldir that would give her the one thing that would bring her back from the edge of despair. Very well done. I'm hanging on the edge again. Who will find her and help her? Can't wait for more!
Author's Response: Thank you. Vanimė has reached the point of no return now. All her inner fears/doubts have risen into this new form to confront her. She had hidden many things away even from herself, but she can no longer hold them back anymore. Depression, self-denial, and repression are never good things. Haldir is her rock now; he was from the beginning. He knew how to handle her angry outbursts and short bursts of temper; he knows the true lady inside is wanting to be saved. Vanimė is realizing he is the one person who can love her now; he is free from other entanglements, unlike Thranduil. And it was the fact that she unconsiouscly connected with Haldir rather than Thranduil that surprised her as well. But as Galadriel warned, "Not all is well between Sindar and Silvan...". At any rate, the ride is almost over! Keep hanging on a bit more, and then we fold this first installment and begin the second. Thanks for your continued support, Moe! :)
Nice flashback and such a sad one too. It is interesting to see a glimpse of the sisters' childhood, no matter how unfortunate it is. Now, the ending has me thrown a little. Is Vanime really gone? Is this her ghost? An out of body experience? Another dream? And even with all these questions, I'm glad to see Celemire again. I have been wondering how she was and what happened to her. Can't wait for more.
Author's Response: A quote from the movie "Mr and Mrs Smith" will be borrowed to reply to your first statements: "I guess when you're at the end you start thinking about the beginning". With her head trauma and the massive bleeding she began to think of the reason she came to this point. Again, I cannot say anything more regarding Vanimė other than that keep reading :) I have even surprised myself with this one. We will see where my creativity (or lack thereof!) takes me. And yes, Celemirė has returned. She will play a rather important role. I think this story might have a few more chapters before it officially ends. Thanks again for your support and hope you enjoy the rest to come.
What an absolutely wonderful and mysterious twist here with the Entwives. Your portrayal of Galadriel, Vanie and the mirror are so vivid and very true to the attitude of the Noldo, almost insulting at one point. This is understandable though, which I am learning as I read Silm. Just when I thought this tale was told, you manage to take us in a new direction. Excellent and still enjoying this very much.
Author's Response: This chapter was difficult to write; took me quite awhile. And again the twist with the Entwives was such a surprise even for me. I'm glad you liked my portrayal of the Noldo women; Galadriel is such a challenge to write. She's so multi-faceted as well, a very ambitious woman. I meant to put that insult there---as the fierce and defiant lady she is Galadriel is having a hard time restraining herself and not directing things in Mirkwood as she wishes. To quote Tolkien from Unfinished Tales "Galadriel saw that Lórien would be a stronghold and point of power to prevent the Shadow from crossing the Anduin ... but that it needed a rule of greater strength and wisdom than the Silvan folk possessed." That's the point I was trying to get across. Glad you are reading The Silmarillion; it is a bit diffcult to digest at times but it's really rewarding. Once more, I am happy you are enjoying my drabbles :)
I was so glad to see you posted. I loved the story telling of this chapter. Very exciting and great descriptions of the girls in Amorith's room as they look over her bookshelf. I can't wait to see what happens and just where they will find this secret place. You have quite a knack for fantacy writing. Great job again.
Author's Response: Thank you; I apologize for the lengthy time it took me to post. Things have been busy for me, and my creativity has been coming in spurts. Again I appreciate your kind words and your review. This chapter took a slightly different turn than what I had in mind, but I think it will work. Always randomness when I write :) I think this story still has a few more chapters before it is finished, but I am enjoying it and hope you are too. Soon things will be revealed, and others will remain mysteries ;)
You did an awesome job with the battle scene. It seemed very true to life. I loved Thranduil's speech before engaging in battle. How kingly he must look going off into the fight. Innas' thoughts and feelings all came through wonderfully, especially when he was faced with one last decision to fight with or against the King. I could feel the pull at his heart, thinking of protecting the very person that brought such desolation to his love and unborn child. Again, the battle was great. It showed the gruesomeness of war. And the scene of Thranduil seeing twin brothers die together must have really brought it all crashing down. Thranduil's reaction was very real. As mighty as he may seem, he is not too much so that such horror would not affect him. Great job on the whole chapter.
Author's Response: Thank you, Moe! I must confess my hesitation at writing any sort of battle scene, and it's not long, but I felt I had to put some action. Thranduil wanted the men to know that he fights as one of them, not as a figurehead disconnected from everything as he previously was. His past haunts him, and he is seeking redemption. He is reminded of the Last Alliance, when the world then was at a close, and he feels all the losses he has endured because of this Evil. His lone charge is the proverbial taking the bull by the horns. He also wanted to instill pride in his men, show them that he will not cower. Both Innas and Thranduil are still trying to deal with their own emotions regarding each other. It is so easy to give into vice, so hard to hold onto virtue. And yes, war is gruesome. Sometimes with the modernity of things people forget that real lives are lost. It's why I interjected the twin brothers, and the Elves dying from being burnt even as they jumped. They were doomed either way. And yes, Thranduil's queasiness is from seeing the wholesale slaughter of his people, as well as the fact that as Innas pointed out he has been in the palace for some time, away from all these scenes. I'm happy you liked this chapter :)
It is so sad that Thranduil finally opens up when it is the end of her life. It is quite a life lesson though isn't it? You don't know what you've got 'til it's gone. His grief will be great, maybe even more so than his anger that he held for so long. I just wanted to tell you your very last line here was absolutely beautiful and just summed it all up. I started reading your story only because of Thranduil, but I've been pleasantly surprised with everything. Wonderful job. Wonderful story. I can't say enough good things about your writing and look forward to the continuation.
Author's Response: It is exactly as you said, you don't know what you've got until it's gone. Thranduil has realized this not just in terms of Vanimė, but also about his own son, Innas, Aranel, and finally Galadriel. His grief will be very great, and it could surpass his anger, yes. Not only does he grieve the things he lost in terms of relationships, but also the decline of the Elves. I am very flattered you remained steadfast through all this. I hope this story has not failed in your eyes because it was not the typical Thrandumance (how's that for a new word!); perhaps that's not what "sells" but that is not my point. I wanted to explore deeper, darker issues, the real story-in-a-story, if you will. But it seems you were pleased, and I appreciate your warm reviews and thoughtful insight. I just pray the continuation will delight you as much as this first installment did. The first chapter is now up. :)
Simply wonderful. I loved it. I will always want more. The only way to improve on it is to continue since it is 'His turn'.
Author's Response: I have to say, I really like writing Elladan- but he has another story to be told- and I intend to pick that up at Christmas.
You're clever. I didn't expect a response so I must thank you for introducing me to your muses. They sound very interesting. Looks like your fishing trip went just about as well as mine did.
Author's Response: Thanks. I found your story very inspiring. At this time of year, a boat off the coast of Florida with a pair of beautiful men sounded like the perfect place to be.